It is Wednesday. YAY!
I so thought I’d have a baby in my arms by now. gahhhh.
But it is what it is!
to fill ya in, like I promised: Yesterday’s appointment took forever because of some office circumstances (only 1 NST machine, and only 1 US machine that day because the other was being fixed), blah blah blah. p.s. I am slightly more effaced & dilated–but not much. I then chatted with the doc for awhile.
So Baby Perks’ HR wasn’t doing what the doc wanted for the entire NST, so then I had to go get another US & have them do a biophysical profile.
Which scared me, of course. That name just sounds intense: biophysical profile.
Turns out though, that Baby Perks is happy as a clam & scored great on the bio-profile. She is in perfect position for birth (!!!!!!gahhhhh!!!!) <–soooooo come already!! And will be well over 7 pounds.
After I finally left, I then proceeded to go buy evening primrose oil (popped more than a few & opened a few for rubbing on the bump & my ‘you know’ area), cry like a mad woman, and text my husband that I AM GOING TO GO CRAY.
He had some really kind words, etc, and then suggested I go get a slurpee or fro yo. Hah. That man is wise.
Guess what though? Food didn’t even sound good.
Long story short-I cry a lot and I am still pregnant.
I actually considered not blogging again until she comes (mostly because I think you and I are both SUPER sick of me saying “no baby” over & over again), but then I thought that might freak people out & you all would be even more worried & wondering where I (and Baby Perks) am.
So here I am.
And here are my thoughts on all this schtuff:
I can endure anything, if I know it will end.
Sounds pretty reasonable, right?
It is. But sometimes actually keeping that perspective is wayyyy harder than it sounds.
Physical, mental, emotional and spiritual endurance each come with a PRICE.
And that PRICE is dedication, perseverance, and self-discipline. (idea for this came from this talk)
If you want to endure something, you must be dedicated, you must commit to persevering, and you must practice self-discipline.
But you must also remind yourself that it WILL end. You have to have that faith & hope. Always.
Right now I am going through a major, mental endurance race. And it might be one of the hardest mental endurance races I’ve ever participated in!
Similar to a physical endurance race, like the Half Iron Man I did last year, right now I have to just keep putting one foot in front of the other. I have to be fully dedicated to this. And I must stay focused & never give up.
Although it would be easy to give up & just be induced…
But I have faith she will come on her own. Or at least I HOPE she will.
I am dedicated & disciplined and I will see her birth through—however it ends up happening, I will endure it. And I’ll do my best to endure it well. <3
Because the prize at the end is WORTH IT.
And, I know this mental endurance race will end. It has to. 😉
With that in mind, did you know, that from a physical fitness perspective, we as athletes do better & work harder in our workouts when we know how much time we have left?? It is a mental battle that begins in the mind & takes over the muscles & the body’s systems. You can do 10 more burpees. Or you can run for 2 more minutes. And then it will be over.
You can do that.
So if you ever want to give up in a workout or race, remind yourself how far you’ve come, yes, but also, how CLOSE YOU ARE to the end. And that the END WILL COME.
It always does.
Annnnnd if it hasn’t come yet, it isn’t the end. 😉
p.s. on a super fun note, this article was hilarious: annoying things married people do on FB. hah. (and I’ve so done some of these things before because I am a romantic sap #truth)
Have a GREAT day!
What has been an emotional, physical, mental, or spiritual endurance race YOU’VE gone through recently??! How do YOU endure a trial well??!