Being a Binge Runner

Hey friends!

Once again, you all are too sweet! Thank YOU so much for your kind words & thoughts. You all are the bomb diggity!

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I’ve been wanting to write this post for awhile, and now that the secret is out, it makes even more sense to write about it now. :)

Being a Binge Runner

I am a binge runner. (this has NOTHING to do with food, but is rather a play on words)

read: I am a runner who enjoys running in random, large spurts of time periods, and then burn out & go into spurts of no running. The time periods vary in length, frequency, and intensity, but I’ve never been a consistent runner in my entire life.

And I’m okay with it. For the most part, I think.

I wasn’t always totally okay with it, though!

So that’s what I want to share today.

Spurts (more in depth in my running story):

  • I ran in HS for sports (field hockey & lacrosse), but I never ever liked it. I hated that part (of just pure running).
  • Then in college, I started running to lose more weight & keep it off (anorexic stages).
  • And then I stopped for awhile (binge eating made me feel like crap, and couldn’t run real well).
  • And then I wanted to do races, so I did a few half-marathons & marathons (2008-2009)
  • I was majorly done with running after my 2nd marathon in Fall of 2009.
  • And then in later 2010, started loving the TM again for HITT work.
  • And around late Fall last year (November 2012), I stopped again. (especially after the Half Ironman training. I was donezo by Nov)
  • And haven’t run more than a mile since then! And p.s. I haven’t died or really even missed it tons.

being a binge runner

{SLC Half, almost exactly 1 year ago!}

This is crazy, but, I feel kind of bad that I don’t miss running. Weird, right?

Why IS this?!

I think it comes from my perfectionism of wanting to do everything and everything well.

I’m not a great runner (I like it & races are fun), but I’m not that fast and don’t really care about PRs.

Gasp.

I like running because it is a great way to stay fit, feel good, get in a good cardio workout, get sweaty (I love a good sweat!), and I often enjoy the simple act of running.

BUT that is not always the case.

Usually I like a run or running because I hit a certain goal or time or pace that I was shooting for, or I got to watch a movie or read while running (on a TM), or because I simply did it & it was on my schedule….

That’s not pure enjoyment, now is it?

And that’s probably the exact reason I am not a consistent runner. I will always do it throughout my life-probably b/c it can be fun for me, but it will never be a huge part of my life. I will never be that runner who does races every month or buys new compression socks weekly.

Oh, and my body doesn’t do well with more than 3x/week of running, so that probably contributes to the ‘bingeing’ I do with running. πŸ˜‰

But here is the weirdest thing:

But seriously, why do I sometimes feel bad about myself (for not ‘being a runner’), and SEEM to miss running, when I read blogs of bloggers who are stellar runners, love running, are constantly training for races, etc.?? Where does this come from—I don’t even love it that much when I do it?

To be completely honest, there is a SMALL part of me that is kind of sad I won’t be that cute pregnant runner…. BUT, I think I know, deep down, that I’m okay with being the fitness instructor pregnant lady instead of the pregnant runner. πŸ˜‰Β Buuuuuutttt then again, there’s that certain kind of “cool club” stigma that comes from saying “I just ran 7 miles.” Or “I’m training for __ marathon.” etc. And even more so if you do that when pregnant.

So maybe I just want to be cool?!

being a binge runner

heh.

I can’t be or have it all, and I have to be okay with that. I can NOT compare myself to others’ goals–especially with something as trivial as choice of fitness enjoyment!

Perfectionism & wanting it all, BE GONE!

{and that’s what I wanted to honestly share}

the end.

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Thankful Thursday

  1. I am grateful I am carrying a healthy baby!
  2. I am super thankful the news is out! Now I can complain to more people!! πŸ˜‰ jk
  3. I am grateful for my Icee drinks. Those bad boys have kept me from throwing up numerous times….

being a binge runner / pregnancy

Have a GREAT day! <3

Does anyone else feel like this with running?? What do YOU do about those feelings?? If YOU run, WHY do YOU run?? What are YOU thankful for today??

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Comments

  1. haha I love the bagel/cream cheese + chips combination. And you have me craving bagels and cream cheese like you don’t even know!!!

  2. Bagels were a necessity when I was pregnant! Enjoy it!

  3. i do really miss running which is weird because i haven’t always loved it. but now that i feel like i “can’t” run, i miss it even more. wah! haha i have grown to love lifting weights though :) :)

  4. LeAnne says:

    I know what you mean with the running! I really do feel similarly…and now once I’ve build up a decent running “base”, I’m afraid if I don’t keep it up…I’ll “lose it”. I really do enjoy other forms of exercise though, and want to incorporate more weight lifting/circuit training workouts into my schedule. I tell myself there is more to life than running! :)

  5. I’m kind of out of love with running at the moment solely because of my injuries. I would LOVE to be able to run, but the constant injuries are making me frustrated with it! And you will be the cutest pregnant fitness instructor ever! I have no idea how women run through their pregnancies… it sounds so uncomfortable!

  6. I feel you on the running.. I ran myself into the ground, and I ended up tearing up my right hip flexor. So, I stopped, started lifting more, and then got questions from people at the gym about when my next race was and why I wasn’t running. To be completely honest, I had taken quite a liking to lifting and wasn’t even missing running at all. Oops.

    I still don’t know if I’ll run like I used to (especially since I’m not even back up to more than a couple miles without pain yet), but I strongly believe that everything in life has an ebb and flow and right now, my run love is just beginning to flow a bit again, but not like it did previously.

    I just make sure that I sweat and enjoy my time while I do. Life is too short for anything else! … aaand, now this comment has gotten overly lengthy. My bad. πŸ˜€

  7. I think you read my mind! While I LOVE running and will (hopefully) always be a runner, I’ve noticed that since I incorporated more cross-training and strength work into my routine, my fitness level has skyrocketed–I run less but I run better. When I was JUST running (with occasional binges of weights or other cardio) I didn’t see any improvement in my pace or distance. Now I am running longer and faster even though I’m running less. Honestly, for me one of the BEST parts of running is being OUTSIDE on a gorgeous day and being kid-free for an hour or so. It’s invigorating and the fresh air/sunshine/me-time are things I don’t get from working out in my basement or at the gym!
    (And you might not be the cute pregnant RUNNER, but you will definitely be the cute pregnant ANNETTE! :-) )

  8. I can relate to a lot of what you said. I love running, but my body doesn’t like too much of it. Sometimes I feel a bit jealous of those that seem to be able to run whenever they want, for as long as they want. But as I learn more and more about ME, and what’s best for ME, the less I compare. So I definitely feel I’m on the right path to just enjoying what I do (because I do love strength training and yoga and biking . . . ), and being happy for what other people like to do. :)

  9. I can totally relate to this in many ways

  10. I am the same way about running! I am never consistent (though I only started a few years ago). But I have this desire to be consistent, to PR, to get faster, but never the dedication. Lately, I’ve been plagued by an ankle injury too so that doesn’t help! I’m determined one of these days to actually run consistently and train to PR for a half marathon. I just refuse to give that up. I’m glad you know yourself well enough though to know that running is just a little fling you have on the side and not a long term commitment πŸ˜‰
    ~Ang

  11. I just wanted to say i LOVE sparkling ice! best drink ever (pineapple coconut!)

  12. I totally understand where you’re coming from about the pregnant running feelings! I had a lot of the same thoughts. As you know, I have some of that perfectionistic personality as well so I’m sure that doesn’t help anything. I know deep down that you just have to do what’s best for YOU and your body. Our bodies and health are all on different journeys. I’m sure you’ll be one of the cutest pregnant fitness instructors out there!

  13. I am exactly the same. Never thought there was a name for it though lol. I upped my distance last year and around december I was struggling pretty badly with binging so I stopped running. I’m starting to feel the running itch again though so no doubt I’ll get back into it soon! It’s a great way to destress!

  14. I’m absolutely the same way with running – I go through phases where I want to do it all the time, and phases where I couldn’t care less about it. Currently, I’m in the latter! It’s weird because so many people see it as the ideal workout, but I’m loving on my weights right now πŸ˜€

  15. I do running in spurts too. Right now, I’m on it (I’m looking at you, June half marathon!) However, I realized that after doing it every day last week, I can’t do it more that 4 times a week or else I burn out (no bueno!). I also know from experience that it’s really hard to be “into” weights and “into” running at the same time. At least for me, they counteract each other and I’m not making gains in either one!

  16. Chatelaine says:

    I’m like that with BodyPump believe it or not. So our roles are reversed, well not that I’m an avid runner. I think I’m drinking the yoga ‘kool-aid’ and want to be a yogi. I’ve been a short distance runner for 10 years but I took 2 years off for knee pain. I will never just knock out 7 miles for something to do, I know I need to run to burn calories.

    But I think I try to do things that ‘most girls’ don’t. I’m the only girl that lifts free weights when I’m there (hate to think I’m the ONLY girl that does) and I’m kinda proud of that. I feel ‘cool’ that I can hang with the boys and I know girls CAN lift weights. Then I see all the yogis and wonder if they know something I don’t LOL

  17. I can totally relate. I WANT to love running and sometimes I actually do. But I never love it enough to stick with it as my “forever” workout. It’s tough, though, because my boyfriend is a triathlete and head coach of a college xc/track & field program so all he knows and talks about is running so I tend to suffer from that “I really SHOULD run” or “I wish I like running” type of mentality.

  18. danielle says:

    girrrrrrrrrrrlllll you are DA BOMB!!! preggo, not preggo, running, not running. you are just simply senstational in EVERY way possible, so it’s just something you’re gonna have to get used to, ok? you rock, period πŸ˜€
    running is totally off/on for me – it has been a thorn in my side at times, and a comfort and source of joy at others. i found after some running injuries, that more is not better! less is actually quite nice, and rest/recovery is AWESOME. these days i’m only running to train for a goal, and make sure i don’t run more than 2-3 times per week. i really believe now in cross training and balance, and that i actually CAN improve my running without running all the time.. does that even sound right? probably not but oh well. works for me, ha!
    today i’m thankful that i skipped my run to let my tired legs be fresh for a big ride tomorrow. hhahaahaha what a coincidence, but it’s true! i’m also thankful that my mom’s blood work came back okay and she is healthy.. i love my mama soooo much, i’m so thankful for her and her health. and mine, too!
    you are lovely and will be the cutest preggo chick around, no matter what you’re doing. it’s you, that’s all that matters, and you dahhhhhling are mahhhhhvelousssssss!
    xoxoxox

  19. I totally get what you’re saying. After I ran my first marathon, I was tooootally fine with not running for a little while. I’m trying to keep running a few times a week though because I don’t want to lose my endurance!

  20. I have felt this way also- except I hate running and only enjoy doing races, to say I’ve done them haha. I think, especially in the healthy blogging realm, that there’s a stigma attached to being a runner and it’s like the ‘in crowd’ in high school haha. I wish I loved running but then again I wouldn’t rather love running than group fitness. GF is clearly superior πŸ˜‰

  21. Phoebe says:

    Haha I am never into running. I used to run on the treadmill, but only to burn calories. When I run, I check my watch all the time cos I’m so bored lol. Now I prefer either FUN exercises such as dancing, cycling and frisbee, or CHALLENGING ones such as bootcamp (new love!) and lifting.

    still, I greatly admire all runners – it takes persistence and determination!!!

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